glug glug glug.

so, here's the thing....doing it "on my own" is not going so well.

i don't have the money to start up my WW etools again, or go to meetings, so i am going to have to figure out a different way of doing it on my own.

i can go back to counting points, as i still have my slider from 11 years ago - but i am a terrible journaller, and i don't know if WW is the answer for me right now.

but what *IS* the answer?  leaving myself to my own devices is definitely not the answer either.  in the last week i have consumed brownies (that C baked with accidently twice as much butter as the recipe called for), ice cream, an amazingly delicious but huge burger and fries at Montana's, an ice cream sandwich, virtually no fruit or vegetables and a couple of cheese buns with a large amount of non-lean luncheon meat.

i know once we have some good groceries in the house (we are down to Mother Hubbard's Cupboard right now), things will be easier.  i am trying to convince myself to have a salad for lunch at least 3 days a week (with some protein on it) and salad for dinner on those other nights.  i will keep up with my cottage cheese breakfasts, and then dinner will just be a simple protein/veg/sometimes starch combo.  sounds do-able, but my brain does not always agree.

i am just sick of feeling like a slug, and this last week i have.  i feel extra fat.  i just did WATP, and it seemed more challenging than it did lastweek because my blood is trying to glug through my butter laden veins.  Oi.

so, my friends - here we go again.