come what may..

i feel very tranquil and at peace today.

it has been a very lackadaisical day..just lazing on the couch, doing a little baking, a little tidying, and a little soul searching.

i have been thinking a lot about my work lately.  my business.  my future.  and i am not too sure what path to take.

i have my own travel business.  i work closely with one of the biggest travel brands out there.  i love travel .  i love being my own boss.  it seems like a logical pairing, no?  but i don't love my job.  i find it frustrating and repetative.  i don't have confidence in myself and what i have to offer my clients.  quite frankly, i would rather spend my life doing something else.

a good friend of mine, L, sent me a link today to a pretty awesome video:

http://www.ted.com/talks/gary_vaynerchuk_do_what_you_love_no_excuses.html

it is a very successful business man talking about what it means, and what it takes to be a successful business owner.  and one of the first things he says is that, "if you don't love your job - stop doing it.  there is no reason in this day and age that you should have to make a living doing something you don't love."

this hit home for me.  but it also scared me.  what else is there to do?  i went out on a limb to start this business, and i love the perks of working from home and being my own boss.  what else could i do that would allow me the same liberties?

in a perfect world i would be writing a book.  i would be taking photos and i would be getting paid for it.  people would know and love my work, and doing these things i enjoy would pay the bills.  but living life as a freelance author/photographer ain't gonna bring home much bacon.

as i have pondered this today, i have felt very calm - as if today is a day where i take an important step in the direction that my life was meant to go.  does that mean that i will pack up the travel brochures and shut down the business?  no.  i will continue to work on that, and work on loving it.  maybe i just need to change my attitude, and put forth more energy on making the business successful and enjoyable, instead of lamenting my choice.

that certainly doesn't mean i will be doing this job forever, but maybe just until my passion gets off the ground in whatever realm it chooses to embody.  i am anxious to see where i end up.